I'll preface this entry with a disclaimer: My allusions and ambiguity may lead to graphic images.
So as I sit here late in the evening as I normally do, I am engaged in a chat with a random character. Ever persistent to get me to his place, I am approached by the idea of the do's and do nots of 'hooking up'. For me, there are different plateaus I am willing to give access to during one of these occasions. If I'm just going for me (which is usually the case), I'm doing it for the thrill. Leave your kisses and body rubbing elsewhere and just get yours so I can get mine. Its a bit selfish, but I have learned how to seperate my feelings from sex (forgive me first love, but I'm too tired). In this state I can say that I only care about the sex, not you.
But for those that I have some attraction to or affinity for, I will unlock all levels of my sexuality. (read pull out all stops). This means that we have some spoken or unspoken contract that we know where things will go after the climax has been reached.
I don't know... it's hard for me to separate feelings from sex. I think if you uncover your body to someone that is an act of trust and exposure... and you don't just trust and expose yourself full to anyone. There are times I've wanted to do the hookup thing, but that is kinda what stopped me.
ReplyDeleteYeah...ive learned to do the same. It seems like now a days all people want to do is play games. So really all you can do is get yours every once in a while til "mr. right" comes a long.
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