Yea, umm about that

I know I was supposed to be putting myself off of sex until 2010, but temptation got the best of me. AND BOY WAS IT GOOD!!! I really could have lost myself in the moment, giving up the penultimate treasure of penetration but my rationale was working hard to prevent me. I wanted to so badly, but I am equally glad that I didn't because once the climax was reached, I was able to see clearly. This was nothing but a jump off type thing and I respect myself too much to lose my 'virginity' to a nameless spectre.

I had some sort of vision while 'gettin it in'. It took me back to Yu-Yu Hakusho and the Chapter Black Saga. The main antagonist, Sensui, was later revealed to have 7 different personalities that had different archetypes. I forgot all the details for their creation (note to self: re-visit The Chapter Black Saga), and its not really necessary for the point I am about to present: What if each one of us carried 7 personalities inside, each embodying a different type of deadly sin (Greed, Lust, Sloth, Gluttony, Envy, Pride, Wrath). You have to agree that situations arise where using one of these forces would prove to be very beneficial to us. And it doesn't have to be the most extreme form of the sin, just enough of it that takes us out of our equilibrium and aligns us with one them. I would think that yesterday's occurrence definitely put me in line with Lust. I could have given in and let it possess me, fulfilling latent desires and partaking in carnal pleasure. It would have been a very fond memory for me, but I am glad I held to myself.

If nothing else, this entry could definitely be used as the plot point for a wicked storyline. (something to ponder)

I'm Still Around

Oh boy, I really have been neglecting my precious blog, my bad. I had planned for some good posts, but the thoughts come to me at the most random moments and by the time I get to a computer I have forgotten the subject. So I'm just going to type what I've been feeling the past couple of weeks.

One of my twitter buddies put me on this 30 days of abstinence. I took it up because I felt that it would give me a clear mind, especially after leaving those sites behind. I can't tell you what it has done exactly, but I have been able to think with more clarity. I feel the creative juices flowing without any obstructions. Self-confidence is on another level, I feel sure of myself and comfortable in my skin. I have made the challenge now to go into the New Year without any sexual contact (doesn't mean I don't touch myself though, lol). With side effects like that, I'd be a fool to desert this journey.

I think my manager at my second job hits on me. I don't take offense because I am interested in playing this game out. The job reminds me why I wanted to get out of retail but it also gives me the opportunity to be around what I love, MEDIA (movies, music and video games). The pay sucks, but I do my job well and rack up on hours (maybe that's an effect of flirting with the boss, lol).

I am SO thankful for the friends I have in my life. They got my back and we can talk about anything (and I don't have to worry about it being used against me). The word gets thrown around a lot but I have really come to hold my friends in such esteem that I will refer to all others as associates. When asked, 'Why don't you call them friends?' I will give them same answer.

I am trying to get my head in on the photoshop business. The current banner is my latest work, featuring my brother. Took my 3 hrs and a very informative YouTube tutorial. I tell myself that I will update it weekly, but we shall see how that goes.

All right, I think I'm tapped out for now.