Staying in the darkness

Sometimes twitter cant accurately express how I'm feeling. 140 characters is such a restriction when there is a storm brewing in your psyche. But I'll some here to express myself because there is no limit to how much I can go on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on... Today I woke up with a gut feeling that I just wanted to be left alone to wallow in my circumstance. I know that proactively handling the situation is the best thing to do, but damn it can I have a moment to just think things over? Truth is I believe we are all entitled to have our dark days. Days spent in seclusion and reflection that may push us to be short with others. Some call it selfish, others say its bitchy, but I think it is necessary. Why do I have to smile everyday? Ain't shit to smile about when the chips are stacked against you. The only thing I can smile about is how I'm going to be happy when things are over, and this point I don't know when that will be so I may not be smiling for a while.