Back when I entered the world of my sexual desires I found myself releasing and finding release all over the place. 2006 was a bad year for me, but a good year for my sexual side. Looking back on it, I could have had a side gig from that (jk). But as I have grown and been tested through the fire, I am more apt to keep that cherished side of myself to myself. My rationale says why should I give up so much of myself (ESPECIALLY given my position on the field) to someone that knows nothing about me. Name, interests, friends, pet peeves, etc. could easily come from one of the social networks I'm on, but I'm waiting on someone to find the essence of Lawrence. I want to be able to build something that will make me want to give myself willingly and without reservation. The trysts that I engage in ever so often are getting fewer and I find myself more removed from each experience. In time I hope that I will be able to live without the little cliffs to get off.
In my selectivity I have found empowerment and motivation to stay my course, so I am feeling good.
I think its cool that you gave into your desire. If you hadn't you wouldn't have found what you wanted or needed out of your love life.
ReplyDeleteGlad you are finding yourself. I wonder if that is a neccesary journey for me... or if I learned that lesson in other ways... and if not, how? Thanks for sharing.
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