Ugh

Ever so often I am forced to look at how hollow my life is and I begin to long for some type of romantic involvement. The driving force of this search is in hopes of breaking the routine I have fallen in, to provide an escape from the growing feeling of being incomplete. I know that all the romance gurus and mantras say that you shouldn't look for someone to complete you, but I feel like something is missing. And if something is placed there, say a relationship, my life would in fact be 'complete'. I hate this feeling because it is the antithesis of my longing to be independent and devoid of relying on others for support. I hope this feeling wanes soon, I don't think I can handle too much more of this.