Updating 03102009

So the past couple of weeks (or just a month) has been really trying for me. After being purged from the university system, I was on the search for a job. At the end of two weeks I got two job offers, both of which I took. So I'm working part-time at both jobs trying to make sure that my bills get paid. The good thing about working the jobs is that they are different in terms of pay. One is paid by the hour the other is a serving gig. So I collect money each week and that's all good for me!

Love life, eh. Something is blooming, but its still too early to give any details. At this point I'm just admiring through the computer, and we all know how that can go awfully wrong.

Fitness *psigh* I am really holding out from doing any exercise until I get my hands on an ipod, I just feel so incomplete without one. And once I get that almighty 'cash flow', I will definitely be on the lookout for a gym with a pool. Ya boy likes to be aquatic!

Wedding Bells 02272009

One of my close friends asked me a question the other day. He asked if I planned on being married. It forced me to confront an uncertainty about my future that I deliberately forced out of focus of my plans for the future. I know I will acquire a degree, be successful, maybe teach and in a more remote sense, start a family. None of these plans require a significant other nor do I find a necessity for one. Not given the political sanctions against same-sex marriages, I just don't feel that I will get married. I feel that I will not find someone who I can envision sharing my world with and sharing in his. And I am perfectly fine being single, I have hobbies, interest and most importantly family and friends to run to when something is bad. Truthfully, a significant other is a liability for me. When in a relationship, one has to worry about so much, and its magnified in this inglorious 'pop' life that I am in. I don't have time for it, not a second to wait. I have things to do for me and no one is going to hinder my progress except me.

No, see what you need to do is... 12292008

Although I do not believe in making resolutions (see sidebar), this season makes me think of things I can do to change myself for the better. I know I am progressing to something great and I feel that these things can only make my journey better.

• Get a job-With bills piling up and the desire to experience more things, it is paramount that I land some type of stable employment. There biggest impasse that I encounter is my availablity during the semester.
  
• Take better care of myself- I will achieve this through becoming physically fit and eating more healthy. I know this will not come overnight but I am taking steps block by block. Start with jogging and cutting out soda to end up 3-4 days a week in the gym and off red meat.
  
• Become more vocal- This territory comes along with being more confident in who I am. I do a pretty good job of voicing my opinions, but there are situations, issues, and debates that I fear to entertain. But this break from school has been an eye opener for me and I will always remember these things when I feel intimidated by the aforementioned situations.
  
• Read and write more- I feel that I have a lot of vivid stories that could make for good tv shows, movies, documentaries, etc. They often come when I am alone and have no way of documenting them. So I will start to carry and USE some thing to take down my ideas. As ideas spill out I will need to replenish them with new ideas through reading. Good news on that part is that I have accumulated 4 different books since the semester ended, so ummm, yea...let me get to work on that!

Sidebar: If you have a problem that you feel that you need to RESOLVE, why wait until new year's to make a RESOLUtion. Take the time you have now and make a change. It doesn't have to do something drastic, a small change in the right direction can set you up for greatness in your endevours. People often hide behind this notion to continue to engage in things that provide instant gratification(read: pigging out during the holidays) [CUT TO: Me eating everything in sight, lol]. I'm not perfect, just saying....