Dating Chronicles 06152009

In a rip from Mel's page, I will showcase my current dating status. At the time of this post, it is more of a parody since I do not consider myself dating anyone at the moment. Still happily single but entertaining options that I fear will not turn up anything fruitful. Each time I engage someone, I seem to find little things that turn me off. This in turn makes me reflect on myself and question what I really want out of the people I choose to entertain. These introspections sometimes come during the actual date (as it has for the past few encounters), leaving me to give short answers and feign interest in the mundane details of someone's life.

The thing that comes up most in what I look for is someone to stimulate me intellectually. No matter how much game you run; how big 'it' is; how attractive you are, it all fails if you can't draw my attention to something other than those things. I operate in a way of obsession and addiction, taking in all that I can, as much as I can to digest and process it. Things of physical nature don't last too long with me. This is the biggest hurdle to overcome, but surely getting through it will open up layers of myself that are reserved for my closest and most intimate friends.

All roads lead to this place 06042009

If you take a look at the entirety of my blog, you would see that the subject of intimate relationships come up ever so often. I believe its at least once a month. So here is my take on it for June, lol. I want to date and develop feelings for someone, but that process gets boring and misleading. People want to call all the time, say they feel you before they know you, etc. The inverse is you feel someone, call them all the time and say that you feel them before you really know. The whole situation is taxing on an individual, especially when undertaking the task once/twice a month.

From what I have shared with some people, I think that I would be in a better position to just be someone's friend and proceed into an intimate arena. Being friends, I am privy to a bit more information than if I'm getting to know someone. Namely it is the amount of bullshit that I have to filter, that is what I care about. Knowing a person well enough would grant me access to observe and analyze their behaviors to see just how much of their word they tend to keep.

Arg, dating is so hectic...

It is but a dream 03022009a

I have grown very weary of the internet dating scene. I won't go into detail, but I definitely don't find it healthy to a budding relationship to be sitting on sites all day waiting for someone to respond to a message. In time, as I grow stronger, I will be able to do without them. I am pressing towards that mark with my fantasy of meeting a stand-up kind of guy.

Me and Mel talked about it (and the Divo earlier tonight) some time ago, about how we would like to be approached in a setting that is a little picturesque. Personally, I would like to be browsing the collection of graphic novels in Border's, in my own little world when I spot someone out the corner of my eye. At first glance I can just tell that he's well put together. Intelligent. Humorous. Eccentric. Worldly. Attractive. Worth the building anxiety that I feel as awkward eye glances are captured in time immortal. The shyness would build in me and I would turn in the opposite direction only to be tapped by him. Turning to greet a beautiful face and extended arm that would accompany his introduction. Thrown off my balance, I would quickly try to find a way to regain control by asking questions and trying to keep him engaged. Seemingly he would try to end the conversation but prompt me with his number and a salutation saying that he expects to hear from me soon.

Ahh, a man can dream can't he