He really reminds me of another attractive young man, Ryan Reynolds.
Which led me to remember Seth Rogen at the 2009 Academy Awards.
OK, I think I'm done for now.
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Handsome Men 073009
Ok, so I was watching Role Models and can I tell you how attractive Sean William Scott is??
He really reminds me of another attractive young man, Ryan Reynolds.
Which led me to remember Seth Rogen at the 2009 Academy Awards.
OK, I think I'm done for now.
He really reminds me of another attractive young man, Ryan Reynolds.
Which led me to remember Seth Rogen at the 2009 Academy Awards.
OK, I think I'm done for now.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
My favorite things 072909b
Ok, here are some funny viral videos I've come across the last couple of weeks.
What have I done for me lately 072909a
So I have come to peace with not getting my degree in the next year and have begun to sow the seeds that will bear creative fruit that satisfies my artistry. I purchased my DSLR and I love it so much!! I have even put together a portfolio for my work. Here are some shots:
There is a certification program that is offered at PGCC and completion would not only give me a creative edge, but some experience that would make me a better candidate. I'll keep you posted on whats to come.
Typecast 0729209
I had a casual conversation with a coworker the other day about something or another. Somehow it became sexual (like things usually get at Ruby Tuesday's, lol) and she mentioned something about me being gay. I smiled and responded with my ambiguous phrase. To this she said its time to identify the pink elephant in the room and that i was a typical angry black gay man. Now I don't know what the angry black gay man is nor do I identify it. I've always told myself that I would never allow myself to be put in anyone's definition of what or how something should be, speak, act, etc.
Through some introspection, I can say that I am a bit more cynical and catty than most of my peers/coworkers. Always quick with a retort or comment meant to make people laugh usually at someone else's expense. But with this I offer up compassion and loyalty, willing to roll up my sleeves and get the job done when others sit by idly. I don't go on tirades by verbally assaulting people and their ideologies (I keep all that to myself, lol). I don't insult the customers when they ask stupid questions or make outlandish requests. I don't tell management how inefficient they are at running the restaurant. Those seem like things that an angry black man would do. I dare not add the gay stereotypes to it.
I'm kinda tired of people thinking so small and inside a narrow view. Not all black men are this or that, not all gay men are this or that, so how could you be so ignorant to compile a personality profile on someone based on things that are miniscule?
As Solange would say, 'STOOPID IDIOTS!'
Through some introspection, I can say that I am a bit more cynical and catty than most of my peers/coworkers. Always quick with a retort or comment meant to make people laugh usually at someone else's expense. But with this I offer up compassion and loyalty, willing to roll up my sleeves and get the job done when others sit by idly. I don't go on tirades by verbally assaulting people and their ideologies (I keep all that to myself, lol). I don't insult the customers when they ask stupid questions or make outlandish requests. I don't tell management how inefficient they are at running the restaurant. Those seem like things that an angry black man would do. I dare not add the gay stereotypes to it.
I'm kinda tired of people thinking so small and inside a narrow view. Not all black men are this or that, not all gay men are this or that, so how could you be so ignorant to compile a personality profile on someone based on things that are miniscule?
As Solange would say, 'STOOPID IDIOTS!'
I've been meaning to update 07292009
I haven't dedicated enough time to my blog because I usually didn't have anything to write about and when I did have something to write about, I chose to be lazy and keep it to myself. But on this night of introspection and music, I am moved to get something off my chest. I'll have to whisk myself back to late June. I had an episode at a club, a really really bad episode.
Synopsis: Got pissy drunk at the club, lost my keys, threw my phone away, abandoned the people I came with, fell out on the sidewalk, rushed to the hospital, admitted for acute alcohol intoxication, walked from HU to my aunt's house in Bladensburg.
When recounting that night, I see the part of myself that was really scary. He was dark, void of rationale, filled with envy and contempt. He was aroused by my insecurities about being alone and feeling unattractive. Gosh, even typing this makes me feel some kind of way. So now I can go into how He showed up in the first place.
Enter two of my friends and two guests from out of town. I had heard about the friends coming into town for some time and made plans to be off during the weekend to ensure that I could partake in the festivities. I arrived on the scene later Friday evening without knowledge of the coupling that happened in my absence. I went in with the intent to make friends and get close, even intimate with one of the guys that I found attractive. Platonic and copacetic vibes were flowing from the apartment to the club. They even lasted into our animated conversation with the bartender. Drinks started getting heavy with the cheap rail tequila and the pairing commenced. I made my way to the empty dancefloor in an effort to have fun and dance off the feeling of being the fifth wheel. It was somewhere in this area when two went off by themselves and two others made out on the dancefloor. My heart sank as I watched the scene unfold and saw my aspirations of getting intimate shattered in an instant. I ran to the bar to indulge in the sweet libation that is top shelf tequila, numbing my feelings and inadvertedly releasing the seal of the beast. I can't recollect too much of the details from the rest of the night but I know the feelings I felt.
As much as I tried to push it away and forget about it, I can't let it go. I felt and STILL feel betrayed by the two people that I thought were in my corner. I felt out the loop on a loop that I helped shape. A bond that I nurtured and held close, these two people took from me. I really don't make it my business to impose myself into relationships, but this bond was really close to me. I felt as though I could tell these guys anything and do anything for them. It hurts, and stings even more that they don't see or don't acknowledge my anguish.
Damn, it really hurts to be abandoned....
Synopsis: Got pissy drunk at the club, lost my keys, threw my phone away, abandoned the people I came with, fell out on the sidewalk, rushed to the hospital, admitted for acute alcohol intoxication, walked from HU to my aunt's house in Bladensburg.
When recounting that night, I see the part of myself that was really scary. He was dark, void of rationale, filled with envy and contempt. He was aroused by my insecurities about being alone and feeling unattractive. Gosh, even typing this makes me feel some kind of way. So now I can go into how He showed up in the first place.
Enter two of my friends and two guests from out of town. I had heard about the friends coming into town for some time and made plans to be off during the weekend to ensure that I could partake in the festivities. I arrived on the scene later Friday evening without knowledge of the coupling that happened in my absence. I went in with the intent to make friends and get close, even intimate with one of the guys that I found attractive. Platonic and copacetic vibes were flowing from the apartment to the club. They even lasted into our animated conversation with the bartender. Drinks started getting heavy with the cheap rail tequila and the pairing commenced. I made my way to the empty dancefloor in an effort to have fun and dance off the feeling of being the fifth wheel. It was somewhere in this area when two went off by themselves and two others made out on the dancefloor. My heart sank as I watched the scene unfold and saw my aspirations of getting intimate shattered in an instant. I ran to the bar to indulge in the sweet libation that is top shelf tequila, numbing my feelings and inadvertedly releasing the seal of the beast. I can't recollect too much of the details from the rest of the night but I know the feelings I felt.
As much as I tried to push it away and forget about it, I can't let it go. I felt and STILL feel betrayed by the two people that I thought were in my corner. I felt out the loop on a loop that I helped shape. A bond that I nurtured and held close, these two people took from me. I really don't make it my business to impose myself into relationships, but this bond was really close to me. I felt as though I could tell these guys anything and do anything for them. It hurts, and stings even more that they don't see or don't acknowledge my anguish.
Damn, it really hurts to be abandoned....
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