Thursday, April 30, 2009
Its Just.... 04302009
Let us take the time out to examine the word 'just' and our diminutive usage in our everyday vernacular. Using it in a adverb sense, the word has become a get out of jail free card for our many politically INcorrect phrases. Think about it, we can say about anything offensive as long as we use the word in front. The phrase goes from inexcusable to seemingly hilarious with its inclusion. Adding to our sarcastic and cynical arsenal, just is the multi-purpose bullet that fits many of the verbal weapons we use from day to day. Just something to think about...
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Finding the Reasoning 004282009
Some time before I spoke about a premonitory sense that quietly dictates our actions or at least tries to warn us of the dangers ahead. Much has transpired since my last post and I see now that there was a reason for my absence in my postings about updates. In time I will return to fill in every sordid detail of what happened, but until then, we will continue with our regularly scheduled programming. THANKS!
Friday, April 17, 2009
What to do 04172009
Its amazing to see how things slip through your fingers as quickly as they materialize. At the moment I am trying my hardest to not let my emotions get the best of me, but it is so hard. They are in a flux; anger at myself for allowing someone to 'sweep me off my feet'; fear of putting my hopes into someone selling a dream that I have yet to see. Looking deeper in it, I am mostly filled with anger. How could I do that to myself? How could he give up so easily? Why the hell did I set myself up like this? What the fuck was I thinking? Have I not learned my lesson? Why haven't I typed a nice long facebook message to tell him how I truly feel? Why the hell did I respond to his initial message? Why did I accept the friend request? Where do I go from here?
I see now that the actions taken have made me more damaged than before. Time for something more drastic. Phase one activate!
I see now that the actions taken have made me more damaged than before. Time for something more drastic. Phase one activate!
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Don't Underestimate Me 04162009
I really don't know the impression I leave on people, but I do believe it is widely positive. I won't go fishing for superlatives; I just know that I am a good person. Don't take my calm demeanor as a sign of naivete, I know right well what is going on around me and have control over myself at all times. I may search for answers and even break down at times, but I am always conscious of my surroundings and audience. Carefully discerning to whom I expose my most vulnerable and ephemeral side. And deeper, buried in the dark and malignant recesses of my mind, is the ability to lose all compassion in pursuance of a goal. I hope that you never experience that...
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Today Was a Good Day 04142009
Woke up with a smile and a positive attitude after being on the phone for hours with T. Our conversation definitely gave me a pep to put in my step as I prepared for work. I immediately showered and headed out the door, intent on making it to Borders to pick up a new book, Angels & Demons (D. Brown). I finished Hiding in Hip Hop (T. Dean), last night and wanted a different genre to lose myself. With the upcoming movie release and favor for The DaVinci Code, I knew I had to pick this book up. Throughout the day, I got through 200 pages. (note: reading good literature makes the time spent on the metro fly). When I arrived to work I was informed that someone called out and they wanted me to come in later to close. I opted to grab a bite and devour the recently purchased book for 2 hrs. I got on the clock and was on a roll. I sold 6 of our promotional items to get mgt off my back. Fun conversation with coworkers and the guests didn't blow me too much. Made it home and just been chilling, today was a good day!
100 Truths
I needed something to reconnect me to my blog, so here we go! (Thanks Mels!)
1. Last beverage→ Pepsi
2. Last phone call→ Travis
3. Last text message→ Darian
4. Last song you listened to→ Heaven-John Legend
5. Last time you cried→ its been a while
SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Dated someone twice? → Yea
2. Been cheated on? →Yea, that shit is so grimey
3. Kissed someone & regretted it? hmmm
4. Lost someone special?→ Yes
5. Been depressed?→ Never been diagnosed, so no
6. Been drunk and threw up? →oh boy, have I?
LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
1. Blue
2. White
3. Black
4. Red
HAVE YOU:
1. Made new friends → All the time
2. Fallen out of love → Yea, me and love have a peculiar relationship, always showing up when I don't want to be bothered
3. Laughed until you cried → Yea, I almost pissed my pants too!
4. Met someone who changed you → Yea, they made me want to be smarter
6. Found out someone was talking about you → No, does that mean no one is talking about me?
9. How many kids do you want to have→ 3 two boys and a girl
10. Do you have any pets → not currently, but I want a dog
11. Do you want to change your name→ Nah, there aren't too many with my name
12. What did you do for your last birthday→ Learned how to make a Mojito
14. What were you doing at midnight last night- on the phone with Travis
15. Name something you CANNOT wait for → Working in my field!!!
16. Last time you saw your father→ Can't remember, more importantly, DONT CARE
17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life→ nothing, everything that has happened has made me the person I am
18. What are you listening to right now → The Killers
19. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → Does Thomas and Tommy count?
20. What's getting on your nerves right now? → Financial situatio
21. Most visited webpage → Facebook
1. What's your name→ L. Lorenzo
2. Nicknames→Any variant of my last name
3. Relationship Status → Talking to someone
4. Zodiac sign → Taurus
5. Male or female or transgendered → Male
6. Elementary--> St. Francis De Sales and Spellman
7. Middle School → Greenbelt
8. High school → Fairmont Heights
10. Hair color → Dark Brown
11. Long or short → Short
16. Height → 6'8''
17. Do you like someone? yessir and it feels good!
18. What do you like about yourself? → I think a lot
19. Piercings → 2
20. Tattoos → 3
21. Righty or lefty→ Righty
FIRSTS :
22. First surgery → Right after puberty hit, one of the guys didn't come down...
23. First piercing → my ears
24. First best friends → Marquis, Selika and John
26. First sport you joined → Tennis
27. First pet →Dunno if he was the first, but he was the first I remembered, Chilly
28. First vacation→ Niagra Falls, back when I was the only child
29. First concert → MC Hammer
30. First crush → Stephanie
RIGHT NOW:
49. Eating → Pastries
50. Drinking → Pepsi
52. I'm about to → chill and then do the nasty alone, tehehehe
53. Listening to → The Killers still
55. Waiting for → nothing
YOUR FUTURE :
58. Want kids? → yes
59. Want to get married? → The jury is still out on this one
WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
68. Lips or eyes? → Eyes
69. Hugs or kisses? → Kisses
70. Shorter or taller? Shorter
71. Older or Younger? →Older
72. Romantic or spontaneous? → Romantic
73. Nice booty or tatas? → Chest ;)
74. Good guys or bad guys? → Definitely the good guy, there's a reason the bad guy is bad...
75. Hook-up or relationship? → 2 yrs ago, hook-up...now, RELATIONSHIP
HAVE YOU EVER :
78. Kissed a stranger? → went a lil further than that with a stranger, lol
80. Lost glasses/contacts? → Nah, but I did step on them when I was drunk in a club...and they were later stolen from my bookbag
81. Skinny Dipped? → Yes, in Bermud
82. Broken someone's heart? → Yea...Karma made sure I got mine though
83. Had your own heart broken? → Read Above
85. Been arrested? → Thankfully no
86. Turned someone down? → Yes
87. Cried when someone died? → Yes
88. Liked a friend? → Yes, I have some attractive friends
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself? → Of course, if I don't who will?
90. Miracles? → Yes
91. Love at first sight → Eh, dunno
92. Heaven → Yes
93. Santa Clause → No
95. Kiss on the first date? Yes...if you talkin right we may get some heavy petting in there, lol
96. Angels → Not in the conventional sense
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → He knows who he is
98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → Never have and never will!
99. Will you repost this? → Prolly not
100. Did you lie at any of these questions? Nope
1. Last beverage→ Pepsi
2. Last phone call→ Travis
3. Last text message→ Darian
4. Last song you listened to→ Heaven-John Legend
5. Last time you cried→ its been a while
SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Dated someone twice? → Yea
2. Been cheated on? →Yea, that shit is so grimey
3. Kissed someone & regretted it? hmmm
4. Lost someone special?→ Yes
5. Been depressed?→ Never been diagnosed, so no
6. Been drunk and threw up? →oh boy, have I?
LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
1. Blue
2. White
3. Black
4. Red
HAVE YOU:
1. Made new friends → All the time
2. Fallen out of love → Yea, me and love have a peculiar relationship, always showing up when I don't want to be bothered
3. Laughed until you cried → Yea, I almost pissed my pants too!
4. Met someone who changed you → Yea, they made me want to be smarter
6. Found out someone was talking about you → No, does that mean no one is talking about me?
9. How many kids do you want to have→ 3 two boys and a girl
10. Do you have any pets → not currently, but I want a dog
11. Do you want to change your name→ Nah, there aren't too many with my name
12. What did you do for your last birthday→ Learned how to make a Mojito
14. What were you doing at midnight last night- on the phone with Travis
15. Name something you CANNOT wait for → Working in my field!!!
16. Last time you saw your father→ Can't remember, more importantly, DONT CARE
17. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life→ nothing, everything that has happened has made me the person I am
18. What are you listening to right now → The Killers
19. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → Does Thomas and Tommy count?
20. What's getting on your nerves right now? → Financial situatio
21. Most visited webpage → Facebook
1. What's your name→ L. Lorenzo
2. Nicknames→Any variant of my last name
3. Relationship Status → Talking to someone
4. Zodiac sign → Taurus
5. Male or female or transgendered → Male
6. Elementary--> St. Francis De Sales and Spellman
7. Middle School → Greenbelt
8. High school → Fairmont Heights
10. Hair color → Dark Brown
11. Long or short → Short
16. Height → 6'8''
17. Do you like someone? yessir and it feels good!
18. What do you like about yourself? → I think a lot
19. Piercings → 2
20. Tattoos → 3
21. Righty or lefty→ Righty
FIRSTS :
22. First surgery → Right after puberty hit, one of the guys didn't come down...
23. First piercing → my ears
24. First best friends → Marquis, Selika and John
26. First sport you joined → Tennis
27. First pet →Dunno if he was the first, but he was the first I remembered, Chilly
28. First vacation→ Niagra Falls, back when I was the only child
29. First concert → MC Hammer
30. First crush → Stephanie
RIGHT NOW:
49. Eating → Pastries
50. Drinking → Pepsi
52. I'm about to → chill and then do the nasty alone, tehehehe
53. Listening to → The Killers still
55. Waiting for → nothing
YOUR FUTURE :
58. Want kids? → yes
59. Want to get married? → The jury is still out on this one
WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
68. Lips or eyes? → Eyes
69. Hugs or kisses? → Kisses
70. Shorter or taller? Shorter
71. Older or Younger? →Older
72. Romantic or spontaneous? → Romantic
73. Nice booty or tatas? → Chest ;)
74. Good guys or bad guys? → Definitely the good guy, there's a reason the bad guy is bad...
75. Hook-up or relationship? → 2 yrs ago, hook-up...now, RELATIONSHIP
HAVE YOU EVER :
78. Kissed a stranger? → went a lil further than that with a stranger, lol
80. Lost glasses/contacts? → Nah, but I did step on them when I was drunk in a club...and they were later stolen from my bookbag
81. Skinny Dipped? → Yes, in Bermud
82. Broken someone's heart? → Yea...Karma made sure I got mine though
83. Had your own heart broken? → Read Above
85. Been arrested? → Thankfully no
86. Turned someone down? → Yes
87. Cried when someone died? → Yes
88. Liked a friend? → Yes, I have some attractive friends
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself? → Of course, if I don't who will?
90. Miracles? → Yes
91. Love at first sight → Eh, dunno
92. Heaven → Yes
93. Santa Clause → No
95. Kiss on the first date? Yes...if you talkin right we may get some heavy petting in there, lol
96. Angels → Not in the conventional sense
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → He knows who he is
98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → Never have and never will!
99. Will you repost this? → Prolly not
100. Did you lie at any of these questions? Nope
Monday, April 6, 2009
Blame it on the... 04062009
Alcohol, it lowers my inhibitions and opens the emotional floodgates that I work so diligently to uphold. I will not go into detail my reasons (read older posts for that) but know that I keep them well hidden for a reason. With the happy juice coursing through my veins, I am more apt to divulge the warm center of my being. One would think that this is a positive, but given my fragile emotional self, I often find the reason why I lock that part up in the first place.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
I think I need these 04012009a
Ok, so I've been thinking about some of the movies that I think would be great additions to my collection and just good for me to finally see.
- Do The Right Thing
- Miracle At St. Anna
- She's Gotta Have It
- Psycho (Original)
- Doubt- it comes out next week!!!!
- Nightmare on Elm Street
- Friday the 13th
- Little Miss Sunshine
- Pineapple Express
- Nick and Nora's Infinite Playlist
- Pan's Labyrinth- I'm looking for the collectors or special edition
- Slumdog Millionaire
Subjectivity 04012009
These thoughts about life and its myriad concepts always come to me at the most random moments. I believe it comes from my practice of drawing parallels between situations. Something happened at work today that flung my mind to something that had happened days or weeks before. The concept came to me that many of the things that we consider as concrete can be left up to question and interpretation. In my eyes that makes them entirely subjective. Of course there are things that we all accept as subjective; beauty, style, entertainment, success, etc. But what about concepts like good and evil; emotions like love, joy, and pain; attributes like dedication, compassion, and integrity. How do we accurately categorize and ascribe these constructs to people we know when their foundations are based on interpretative grounds? And what do we call it when a something is not exactly that which we describe it as? Do we automatically call it by its inverse? Surely we can not dismiss something as evil just because it is not the picturesque good. This grey area is where we can find a wide range of subjectivity. Something to ponder, but I fear that a conclusion will never be reached.
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