I originally dated this for the end of January but I didn't have the discipline to see it through. So here goes....
I was listening to one of those midday mixes the other day. The ones where they play the old school hip hop, the artistry that was prevalent during my days of early development. The now primitive videos that focused more on the lyrics than the images of conspicuous consumption. During the mix I heard a song that I remember from those days, 'Ruffneck' by MC Lyte. I got so hyped in the photo lab that I started to dance a little when everyone was looking at their prints in the light. Those old school dances that House Party made popular for my generation.
I listened to the song when I got home that night, a couple of times even. It through me back to one of my classes. We were discussing the images in today's music videos and one of the students made a good point. She suggested there was a correlation between the absence/decline of the B-Girls (MC Lyte and Queen Latifah) to the presence/oversaturation of the video vixens. The role of women in hip-hop shifted from women asserting their own idea about sexual prowess, awareness and feminism to the non-speaking part of a large number of provocatively clothed women (is that even the right pronoun?) fawning over one or two men (can I even give them that much respect?). What happened, where did it go wrong, how can we repair it? All questions that I want to answer as I seek to change black representation in media.
Friday, January 30, 2009
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Vive La Vida 01272009
I was posed the following question yesterday by one of my favorite professors in my documentary film critique class:
If money and time were no object, I would make a documentary about
______1_______ as it relates to my passion about (war, poverty, violence, opportunity, urban voice, or race.
______1_______ as it relates to my passion about (war, poverty, violence, opportunity, urban voice, or race.
I filled my answers in with gender construction and identity as 1 and urban voice as 2. At any random moment of my day I reminded of a time when I was a child and I asked a question to some authority figure (parent, teacher, relative, etc) about why things were a certain way. Why was blue for boys and pink for girls; why can girls play with dolls but boys can't? The answer I received always pushed me away from asking questions about such topics. It was not until I took another class with the same professor that I truly began to ask these questions again. Given the freedom of access to the vast amounts of knowledge, my inner self finally felt vindicated. I began to use a technique best described as 'interrogating the image' to form my questions about gender construction and identity. There a myriad of images, devices, nuances, vernacular, morals, folkways, and mores that provide an exclusionary vision of what it is to be masculine/feminine or woman/man.
Through my own personal journey, I have been more empathetic to feminine debacles and hardships. Watching a mother work to the bone to provide for three kids while a father goes from unmotivated participant to simply absentee is a story that resonates with a lot of people in my generation. And several personal journeys have opened my eyes to the vast marginalization of 'invisible minorities'. The various cultures of Central and South America, the vast nationalities of Asia and the Pacific Islands, homosexuals and transgender are just a few. I believe that the struggle of one group is akin to the struggle of another. There are definite parallels between gay rights to marriage and immigration issues.
I provide this back story to allow you to see through my eyes. I become enraged when I see the aforementioned devices at work. I become more agitated when the agents of the conventional construction of gender have the privilege to voice their opinion through one of the media that reaches a mass audience. Michael Baisden happens to be one of those agents.
I had the displeasure of stumbling upon his show on my way home from school this evening. I chimed in on his discussion with George Wilbourne and the active male audience about a man's role in a relationship. One caller described the situation as, 'the female's tendency to de-claw a man....to remove his canines so that he is all bark but no bite.' To this Michael and George enthusiastically agreed. Providing basis for Michael's next line, which instructed men to 'take the baby off your back [and] the basket off your head.'
With these and other euphemisms, Michael left impressionable members of audience with the foundation to construct gender roles. He also marginalized many 'invisible minorities' that are working to debunk the convention of a patriarchal household.
As a student of culture, I felt insulted. As a product of a broken family, I felt insulted. As empathizer for minorities, I felt insulted. As a black man, I felt embarrassed. I heard in him, and his listeners, many of the voices that I had to surmount to get where I am currently. I heard older members of my fraternity that are still using early and mid 20th century logic to solve 21st century issues. I heard the shouts of anger from a mother who couldn't cope with her son's life. But I also heard my inner voice and the voices of those whose ideas and convictions synchronize with my own. I heard the children of the future calling me to take up the cause and work for progress and change. And to them, I owe everything!
Through my own personal journey, I have been more empathetic to feminine debacles and hardships. Watching a mother work to the bone to provide for three kids while a father goes from unmotivated participant to simply absentee is a story that resonates with a lot of people in my generation. And several personal journeys have opened my eyes to the vast marginalization of 'invisible minorities'. The various cultures of Central and South America, the vast nationalities of Asia and the Pacific Islands, homosexuals and transgender are just a few. I believe that the struggle of one group is akin to the struggle of another. There are definite parallels between gay rights to marriage and immigration issues.
I provide this back story to allow you to see through my eyes. I become enraged when I see the aforementioned devices at work. I become more agitated when the agents of the conventional construction of gender have the privilege to voice their opinion through one of the media that reaches a mass audience. Michael Baisden happens to be one of those agents.
I had the displeasure of stumbling upon his show on my way home from school this evening. I chimed in on his discussion with George Wilbourne and the active male audience about a man's role in a relationship. One caller described the situation as, 'the female's tendency to de-claw a man....to remove his canines so that he is all bark but no bite.' To this Michael and George enthusiastically agreed. Providing basis for Michael's next line, which instructed men to 'take the baby off your back [and] the basket off your head.'
With these and other euphemisms, Michael left impressionable members of audience with the foundation to construct gender roles. He also marginalized many 'invisible minorities' that are working to debunk the convention of a patriarchal household.
As a student of culture, I felt insulted. As a product of a broken family, I felt insulted. As empathizer for minorities, I felt insulted. As a black man, I felt embarrassed. I heard in him, and his listeners, many of the voices that I had to surmount to get where I am currently. I heard older members of my fraternity that are still using early and mid 20th century logic to solve 21st century issues. I heard the shouts of anger from a mother who couldn't cope with her son's life. But I also heard my inner voice and the voices of those whose ideas and convictions synchronize with my own. I heard the children of the future calling me to take up the cause and work for progress and change. And to them, I owe everything!
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Thoughts to keep me company 01242008
I feel like I am stuck in a cave with little light but so much to explore. My mind has different thoughts, opinions, and reflections about a little of everything at this point. I guess I can traverse down a certain passageway and find myself wallowing in uncertainty because I don't know what I want. When presented with different options about how to go about this dating scene, I always contemplate too long and I am left feeling alone and unwanted. I hate feeling this way because it makes me feel vulnerable. Vulnerable to whoever can come to my aid and whisper the right words. I'll be at a point of disadvantage so much so that I would willing offer myself to him with no forethought about the consequences of my actions. Then I move pass that phase and enter regret because I was the dog that looked into the water and tried to grab the bone that was in the reflection. Left with nothing, I am left to wander around wishing to simply press the reset button to make a different decision. I could probably be in a different spot if my situation were different. If I possessed the means to an end, I may be happy, or even just a little content with my love life right now. But I digress, because I have other things to worry about. I think I digress...shit....I have no choice but to digress and move on. Time spent too long on things like this will call forth the deeper demons that I wish not to entertain at the moment.
I sometimes feel unmotivated to do things. The duties and responsibilities that I have been entrusted with, I lack the emotion to carry them out successfully. I dunno where this stems from but I think I need to take a break from being so accessible. Even with a disconnected phone, I remain to stay in contact with a lot of people through various social networking sites. I get one, check messages and sit, like a fly on the wall, waiting for something exciting to happen. A chance to flex my expertise or interact with people. I won't announce my sabbatical. I find it awfully boastful to announce to the world that one is leaving or going on some type of pilgrimage. If one truly put his heart into leaving and bettering himself, he would trust that those that truly care could read this from miles away. Everyone else, well I guess it was nice to have the illusion of caring for the moment.
Ha! Even as I write this I am compelled to check up on myself, to see if anyone really cares as much as I would like. That is a story for another day I believe.
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I sometimes feel unmotivated to do things. The duties and responsibilities that I have been entrusted with, I lack the emotion to carry them out successfully. I dunno where this stems from but I think I need to take a break from being so accessible. Even with a disconnected phone, I remain to stay in contact with a lot of people through various social networking sites. I get one, check messages and sit, like a fly on the wall, waiting for something exciting to happen. A chance to flex my expertise or interact with people. I won't announce my sabbatical. I find it awfully boastful to announce to the world that one is leaving or going on some type of pilgrimage. If one truly put his heart into leaving and bettering himself, he would trust that those that truly care could read this from miles away. Everyone else, well I guess it was nice to have the illusion of caring for the moment.
Ha! Even as I write this I am compelled to check up on myself, to see if anyone really cares as much as I would like. That is a story for another day I believe.
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Friday, January 23, 2009
Developing Photographer 01232009a
Here a couple of pics from the digital photography class. They were not taken by me, but they will serve a purpose for my first assignment.
Shroud of Shadows 01232009
In the animated tv show Xiaolin Showdown, the Shroud of Shadows was a mystical artifact (Shen Gong Wu) that made the user invisible. While such an article doesn't exist in reality, I do believe there are tactics that one can use that give a similar effect. It has been my experience that people are invisible to us not simply because we do not see them, but we choose not to acknowledge their presence. This could be as simple as not returning a message or to the more advanced physical practice of remaining out of the line of sight.
Through precise readings and knowledge of the terrain I have found a way of successfully executing this stealth tactic. In my mind, this skill is indicative of the ninja that I sometimes play myself to be. When you wish to maintain the air of invisibility you have to be sure to notice your target before they notice you. (If they see you then whats the point of tyring to be invisible?) It is usually easy to pull things off if they are preoccupied, listening to music, reading a book, making a purchase, talking to a friend, etc. Be sure as not to alert them with sudden movements or by drawing attention to yourself. If you walk at the right place and at a good distance you can pass them on the side and continue in your direction without them noticing.
At some point it may seem like obtaining invisibility is akin to avoiding someone. And if it is, what problem does that provide? Sometimes you just don't need to see certain people, so use this tactict whenever you feel the need.
Through precise readings and knowledge of the terrain I have found a way of successfully executing this stealth tactic. In my mind, this skill is indicative of the ninja that I sometimes play myself to be. When you wish to maintain the air of invisibility you have to be sure to notice your target before they notice you. (If they see you then whats the point of tyring to be invisible?) It is usually easy to pull things off if they are preoccupied, listening to music, reading a book, making a purchase, talking to a friend, etc. Be sure as not to alert them with sudden movements or by drawing attention to yourself. If you walk at the right place and at a good distance you can pass them on the side and continue in your direction without them noticing.
At some point it may seem like obtaining invisibility is akin to avoiding someone. And if it is, what problem does that provide? Sometimes you just don't need to see certain people, so use this tactict whenever you feel the need.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Orientation 01222009
Oh gosh, here I sit in this forsaken orientation once again. This class is so damn bogus. For goodness sake, I'm writing a blog in class. 200+ students and a hard nosed teacher that takes the class too seriously. Too add insult to injury, the class is at 8:10, but you are considered late at 8:06. Grrrr. And this is generally a freshman course so I possess most of the information already!!
Monday, January 19, 2009
In search of...01192009a
(in no order of importance)
- N.E.R.D.'s Everybody Nose [Remix]- The Kanye verse is on FIYAH!
- The angry whooper-I don't relaly eat BK, but the commercial has me convinced that its pretty tasty. SANS THE SWINE!
- Job- *Psigh*
- Nikon DSLR- Delving deeper in my photographic studies, this is starting to become more of a necessity. I got a friend that is trying to sell me his for a decent price but I was told to shop around for the body and blow big bucks on the lens. I'll handle it when I have the opportunity to make the purchace.
- Unconditional love- *P....S....I....G....H*
- A 4.0- Time is running out for me, two semesters left.
- Ipod- My last one was stolen and I haven't had the means to this end.
- White V-Neck- Seeing as I misplaced my other one, I need another to make my more outfits from the functional clothes me and Mel shopped for.
- Xbox Live Gold Membership- So I can play Naruto online.
- Gas money/stipend- lol
- Film and photo paper- New semester, new supplies.
- Time- To feel guiltless for my actions.
- Understanding-After seeking so much to understand, I wish to be understood.
- My hair back- Its growth was my testament to a growing and changing me.
- An escape- Anywhere but home (Mel, this weekend is ours).
- Sex- I'm holding out for the right vibe, but its abscence makes me more sexually agitated.
- Tolerance- After this weekend, I need to get my drinking game up!
- Workout plan- My silhouette makes me wanna....
- Books- Yea, I need those this time around, DRATS!
- Access to blackboard- I need to do those blasted sociology quizzes.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
The need to stay active 01182009
As much as I like to stay in the house and be to myself, I see that it is sometimes socially damaging to my psyche. It is when I am alone that my insecurities come to the forefront and I am left lamenting my situation. All I can ask is why I feel this way and why doesn't the confidence I exude on so many other occasions come to my defense in my time of need.
My biggest fear of meeting someone is to be rejected. I have been turned down by jobs, internships, institutions, and organizations. But the most painful rejection comes from one singular being. This is further amplified in the realm of dating when someone just stops communication. Falsely lulled into the security of a synchronized vibe,endorphins are released and I am flung into a semi-euphoric state. The umbilical cord that rations my subsistence is severed when the communication is dropped without any type of reason, no matter how pragmatic it may be. I am a pretty open person and I require a thorough understanding of situation. This proof gives me the ability to rational the reason behind the action and helps me prepare myself in the case the the situation arises again.
Maybe I need a break from all this dating crap. Or this is my retribution for the sins of the past.
My biggest fear of meeting someone is to be rejected. I have been turned down by jobs, internships, institutions, and organizations. But the most painful rejection comes from one singular being. This is further amplified in the realm of dating when someone just stops communication. Falsely lulled into the security of a synchronized vibe,endorphins are released and I am flung into a semi-euphoric state. The umbilical cord that rations my subsistence is severed when the communication is dropped without any type of reason, no matter how pragmatic it may be. I am a pretty open person and I require a thorough understanding of situation. This proof gives me the ability to rational the reason behind the action and helps me prepare myself in the case the the situation arises again.
Maybe I need a break from all this dating crap. Or this is my retribution for the sins of the past.
Friday, January 16, 2009
Look what I done did 01162009c
I finally found a way to upload my black and white photos to the net. With the help of someone on twitter I found a nice semi-professional website that I could post my photos on. This is just a sample, let me know what you think.
Miner Hall
Bicycle
Column
An historic event 01162009b
I have been in practice for three hours everyday since last Wednesday for the Inaugural Parade for out 44th President, Barak Obama. I realize that a lot of my closest friends don't know until I tell them. Hell, most people on campus don't even know. So consider yourselves informed.
Arg (redux) 01162009a
I will be the first to admit that in the past I was a whore. Freely giving myself sexually to anyone that appeared to care for me, when in truth they were out for the passion of the moment. Through this tempering I became jaded and came to care even less about myself.
I can't point to the exact time, date, or event that changed things, but I made a conscious decision to put that part behind me. I have really slowed down, but even after trying to go cold turkey I still sometimes engage in the activities of the past. Through them I find that I was so foolish to ever think that the likes of them could receive me in my entirety. The situation depreciates further when I attempt to meet them on their terms but still end up on the short end of the stick.
No longer will I accept this. That which was holding me back is being deleted today, so farewell to you losers!!
I can't point to the exact time, date, or event that changed things, but I made a conscious decision to put that part behind me. I have really slowed down, but even after trying to go cold turkey I still sometimes engage in the activities of the past. Through them I find that I was so foolish to ever think that the likes of them could receive me in my entirety. The situation depreciates further when I attempt to meet them on their terms but still end up on the short end of the stick.
No longer will I accept this. That which was holding me back is being deleted today, so farewell to you losers!!
Arg 01162009
The sound of anguish and disgust that I displayed this morning when I was told that I had to wake up to wait on the repair guy for our heating. This is after I assured myself that it was perfectly fine to attend my almost spec's (special big brother) birthday dinner last night and that it was in my power to stay up a little late because I would be sleeping in, since I don't have Friday classes. Arg, come on mister repair man, I'm ready to get back in bed!!
Monday, January 12, 2009
My bad 0112200NINE
My bad, I have been dating my posts of the new year as 2008, but we all know its 2009. My bad!!
Optimism 01122008
Later today I will be talking to my advisor to make sure I am on track for graduation. It took me so long to get here. I could have graduated if (1) I got my act together my sophomore year and (2) wouldn't have taken a year off in 06. But I like the course that my life has taken. Although I am still unemployed, I remain optimistic about the semester. There is an opportunity for me to work with Spike Lee, a promising internship, and I have some great classes this time around. I can't wait to really get into the swing of things!!!
Thursday, January 8, 2009
An escape from purgatory 01082008
Yesterday marked the beginning of the spring semester. I was really lamenting the approaching date because I had grown accustomed to late nights and an overall sense of being sloth. But as I started my paperwork for class, it dawned on me that the situation was really detrimental to my overall being. I was not motivated and when left alone, my insecurities raped my brain. Like the clouds parting to show the beautiful sky, my darkness was illuminated by several things. To my surprise, I am finally a senior (yea, I got the credits to prove it!). And as I made my way back to my beloved university, I was grated the sight beyond sight. I fell right back into the niche of the band and chapter. These two entities loved me when no one else did. It was good to be around family. And even though they have brought a lot of stress, I realize that I am best when I am challenged. These next couple of weeks will be a challenge, one that I can't wait to surmount!
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
I wanna be made....again 01062008
Ok, so as I sit up this evening I think about other things that I want to do. Here are some of my fantasy made scenarios.
- Ninja-C'mon who wouldn't want to be a ninja. I wanna be likened to Ryu Hyabusa, last of the Dragon Ninja.
- Samurai- Just to be able to wear the armor would be enough for me.
- Spider-Man- Since DC doesn't have any skyscrapers, getting around the city wouldn't be so easy for me.
Monday, January 5, 2009
Character Profile: Ryuk
Ryuk, the shinigami, is one of the main characters in the manga/anime DeathNote. A shinigami is a god of death, a death reaper, or any other euphenism you can make up for a spiritual being that sentences humans to the after life. The particular role of said being(s) differs as much as their true name. To understand the role of a shinigami in DeathNote, you first have to accquaint yourself with the powers of a DeathNote.A DeathNote is a fictional note book that has the power to kill. It is easy to grasp this concept by going over the first part of how to use the DeathNote:
- The human whose name is written in this note shall die.
- This note will not take effect unless the writer has the person's face in their mind when writing his/her name. therefore, people sharing the same name will not be affected.
- If the cause of death is written withon 40 seconds of writing the person's name, it will happen.
- If the cause of death is not specified, the person will simply die of a heart attack.
- After writing the cause of death, details of the death should be written in the next 6 minutes and 40 seconds.
There is one book per shinigami. From their world, they write names in the book to extend their life. Ryuk, growing tired of the boredom that has struck his world, decides to drop the book on Earth. The story that ensues follows Japanese prodigy, Light Yagami, as he tries to recreate the world. Its a killer story and I implore you to read it over. (the manga is better than the anime)
I find similarites in me and Ryuk (sometimes even Light and L). He masterfully planned things just to be entertained for over 8 yrs. He stood back and advised Light during that time even though he knew the final outcome. Sometimes I feel that I too stay on the sideline and advise, instead of being an active player. The situations are not always of my designs, but I am guilty of 'setting the scene' at times.
I find similarites in me and Ryuk (sometimes even Light and L). He masterfully planned things just to be entertained for over 8 yrs. He stood back and advised Light during that time even though he knew the final outcome. Sometimes I feel that I too stay on the sideline and advise, instead of being an active player. The situations are not always of my designs, but I am guilty of 'setting the scene' at times.
Lord have mercy
Do what I can, I'll either be hanged or
you know it, killed by Kira. I
know about him. He's going to get me.
Gods can't help me. I'm sick
of waiting. I want
death. I'm ready for it.
Love I've never known. And dessert is always
apples? This is no life I'm better off dead.
Do what I can, I'll either be hanged or
you know it, killed by Kira. I
know about him. He's going to get me.
Gods can't help me. I'm sick
of waiting. I want
death. I'm ready for it.
Love I've never known. And dessert is always
apples? This is no life I'm better off dead.
I wanna be MADE 01052008
I have always been fascinated with MTV's MADE. They take people and put them through weeks of training to become something that is usually contrary to their nature. If I could be made I would be:
- Dj- They are the life of the party. Well, they are the life support to the party. Mixing hot tracks with dope beats to set the pace. I wanna learn how to truly beat match and scratch so my services can be requested.
- Bartender-As much as I love to drink it is the one of the perfect jobs for me! Although I have demonstrated that I can work in a fast paced environment, intoxicated people can say and do some reckless things! (speaking from exp).
- Dancer- I'm not talking about a hip hop dancer, I wanna be like my brother in this aspect. I want to be a lyrical dancer. Communicating solely though my fluid and graceful movements as the music accents my performance. Ah, a boy can dream can't he?
- Archer- It really has no use in the modern world besides hunting and competition, but The Legend of Zelda: Orcarina of Time (FAVORITE!) got me really interested in it.
- Jockey- See above.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Sense 01042008a
During the early elementary school ages, we are taught that we have five senses. The ability to touch, hear, smell, see and taste are used everyday as we try to describe images, events, and tangible objects. By combining the information perceived by these senses, we are better enabled to provide a more rounded experience to listeners. Weaving together beautifully depicted images accompanied with descriptive anecdotes that appeal to the sense is the moat that separates good stories from great ones. Mastering this art causes the audience to vicariously grasp the essence of the situation.
But what about senses that are left out of the scope of science? Senses that have yet to be defined are often subject to scientific ridicule. Those who openly profess that they posses these senses are marked as social heretics.
It is my belief, in certain cases the constructs of our senses are not capable of processing the information that is presented to us. This can be attributed to the absence of key pieces of information that lead to conclusive analysis of a situation. How do you describe those moments of uneasiness met as we reach the precipice of tranquility? Or the premonitory scenes that play out at seemingly random moments?
There are many things that we can not accurately categorize or define about the human experience. This anomaly, coupled with others, has produced innumerable amounts of universes in the realm of fantasy. It is in these worlds that I sometimes find solace and answers to question asked in reality. It is from here that I derive certain convictions about life and where my plight is resonated a hundred times over. So do not find me strange when some of my beliefs have precedence in the realm of fantasy
But what about senses that are left out of the scope of science? Senses that have yet to be defined are often subject to scientific ridicule. Those who openly profess that they posses these senses are marked as social heretics.
It is my belief, in certain cases the constructs of our senses are not capable of processing the information that is presented to us. This can be attributed to the absence of key pieces of information that lead to conclusive analysis of a situation. How do you describe those moments of uneasiness met as we reach the precipice of tranquility? Or the premonitory scenes that play out at seemingly random moments?
There are many things that we can not accurately categorize or define about the human experience. This anomaly, coupled with others, has produced innumerable amounts of universes in the realm of fantasy. It is in these worlds that I sometimes find solace and answers to question asked in reality. It is from here that I derive certain convictions about life and where my plight is resonated a hundred times over. So do not find me strange when some of my beliefs have precedence in the realm of fantasy
The nerve!!! 01042008
I have become disgusted with Adult Swim as of late. Over the past couple of years they have been slowly cutting back on anime airtime. Going from a couple of hours a night to just one then to none! So now I guess they got some angry letters and found the consolation in supplying viewers with 5 hrs a week (Saturday night 1am-6am) of anime. In the numbers, Adult Swim has Cartoon Network airtime from 10pm-6am 7 days a week which totals to 56 hrs a week. This means that anime constitutes less than 10% of their programming. WTF?!?! In its place Adult Swim incessantly and annoyingly shows reruns of Family Guy. And their new shows PURE GARBAGE!!!
It makes me sad, people are really missing out on some great shows.
It makes me sad, people are really missing out on some great shows.
Friday, January 2, 2009
About that... 01022008
I'll preface this entry with a disclaimer: My allusions and ambiguity may lead to graphic images.
So as I sit here late in the evening as I normally do, I am engaged in a chat with a random character. Ever persistent to get me to his place, I am approached by the idea of the do's and do nots of 'hooking up'. For me, there are different plateaus I am willing to give access to during one of these occasions. If I'm just going for me (which is usually the case), I'm doing it for the thrill. Leave your kisses and body rubbing elsewhere and just get yours so I can get mine. Its a bit selfish, but I have learned how to seperate my feelings from sex (forgive me first love, but I'm too tired). In this state I can say that I only care about the sex, not you.
But for those that I have some attraction to or affinity for, I will unlock all levels of my sexuality. (read pull out all stops). This means that we have some spoken or unspoken contract that we know where things will go after the climax has been reached.
So as I sit here late in the evening as I normally do, I am engaged in a chat with a random character. Ever persistent to get me to his place, I am approached by the idea of the do's and do nots of 'hooking up'. For me, there are different plateaus I am willing to give access to during one of these occasions. If I'm just going for me (which is usually the case), I'm doing it for the thrill. Leave your kisses and body rubbing elsewhere and just get yours so I can get mine. Its a bit selfish, but I have learned how to seperate my feelings from sex (forgive me first love, but I'm too tired). In this state I can say that I only care about the sex, not you.
But for those that I have some attraction to or affinity for, I will unlock all levels of my sexuality. (read pull out all stops). This means that we have some spoken or unspoken contract that we know where things will go after the climax has been reached.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Tatt it Up!! 01012009
So I'm thinking about new ideas for tattoos that I plan on getting this year. As far as placement I am thinking about getting one on my left collarbone, just so it is covered by my shirts. I know not to get it somewhere that is easily visible and not able to be covered. So my first idea comes from the far east.
Heaven
Which made me think of also getting earth on the right collarbone. Or switching it for heaven on the right and earth on the left. The meaning would signify the unity of opposites, the need that they have for each other. Just as arguments and stories, there are two sides (sometimes more).
But then I thought that I already have a Japanese character imprinted on me, go for something more symbolic. And I instantly thought about the Adrinka symbols that I have seen around in tattoo parlors.
Which made me think of also getting earth on the right collarbone. Or switching it for heaven on the right and earth on the left. The meaning would signify the unity of opposites, the need that they have for each other. Just as arguments and stories, there are two sides (sometimes more).
But then I thought that I already have a Japanese character imprinted on me, go for something more symbolic. And I instantly thought about the Adrinka symbols that I have seen around in tattoo parlors.
Gye Nyame
"Except for God"
"Except for God"
Sankofa
"Return and get it"
"Return and get it"
Both of these symbols give way to personal interpretations that I have learned and practiced. The first symbol can be seen as no man can judge me; there is but one being to revere, God. As I calculate my actions and determine allt he consequences, I often take into consideration how others will view me. And as I have grown, I realize that the people's whose opinions I hold in high esteem don't really matter in the biggest picture. The second symbol and my favorite can be interpreted as learning from the past. I believe that we can learn so much from our past and the past of those around us. If not for the virtue taught, we can at least know how not to act in different situtaions. Coupled along with the idea of a changing world, this notion can lead to revolutionary ideas.
As I write this I believe a decision has been made. Stay tuned for more updates!
As I write this I believe a decision has been made. Stay tuned for more updates!
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